Trial by Heart (Trial Series Book 4)

Author:Lizzy Ford [Ford, Lizzy]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2015-12-28T18:30:00+00:00

I curl up on my bed and text Myca until I’m weeping and can no longer hold myself upright.

Not Myca. I can’t bear to lose anyone else I care about.

This feels personal again, as if I’m being punished for bearing the curse. I, too, will have to give up so much more than I ever thought possible. Maybe it’s a good thing I’ll soon be dead. I don’t know how I can live with this kind of agony or even if I’d want to.

Ben, in his wolf form, slinks into the room and leaps onto the bed beside me. I twist my face away, not wanting someone so strong to see me when I’m so weak. My pain and sorrow soon grow too powerful for me to bear alone, and I wrap my arms around the massive wolf in the bed beside me and bury my face into his soft fur.

Erish is always quieter when Ben is around, and I eventually succumb to exhaustion and sleepy heavily.

It’s not the restful kind of sleep. I don’t dream, and I don’t feel good when I wake up, either.

My room is bright and sunny when I manage to pry my heavy eyelids apart. My eyes are swollen and lashes gummy from tears, and I feel heavy, wooden. Moving takes effort. I’m tempted to stay here in bed and let my depression keep me company, but I’ve never really been one to stay off my feet long or to want to be alone, even if I’ve been emotionally hollowed out.

I feel crushed today in every sense. If the candidates’ goal was to destroy my resistance and wear me down, so their magic could take hold, they’ve succeeded. I hate my life. My only solace is knowing Erish must be miserable, too, if I am.

Sitting up, I check my phone and see messages from Myca. He’s sent me about five cute cat gifs that have nothing to do with anything and make me think he discovered the gif function on his phone without understanding it. His only text message is a long one he sent me once already last night.

I had a choice to do something good with the life I’d otherwise wasted or to stay underground for eternity. Like I said – you wouldn’t have known me before I was put to earth. I had moments of goodness but wasn’t a good person, Leslie. This is my chance for redemption.

It’s followed by another cat gif, this one of a cat leaping straight into the air when it sees a banana.

I start to smile.

I can’t imagine Myca being a monster. Although … recalling how he tortured and murdered the vampire council, and his note to Ben about it feeling good, gives some insight into who he might’ve been at one time.

He’s not that person anymore. He’s good. Sweet. Fun. Erish shows none of Myca’s humility. Erish is evil. Myca may have been lost at some point, but he’s good now.

I want to respond, but I don’t know what to say.

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